[x]

deviantART

 
:iconxalways:

~xalways

Victoria Farally (Reina/ Tori)
ProfileGalleryPrintsFavesJournal
About Me Member Procrastinator xalways18/Female/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 1 Year
Needs Premium Membership Statistics 124 Deviations
902 Comments
3,481 Pageviews
Sign up to follow this artist's work

deviantID

Hurting: Advice?

Mon Mar 2, 2009, 9:32 AM
I can't even say I saw this coming, because I didn't.
I've been missing John even more lately, and I know it should slowly hurt a little less each day but it just hasn't. I guess it's because all of my friends are being rather hostile towards each other. And it's true! They're all getting mad at each other for silly things and fighting, I'm growing so tired of it. I don't even know what to do anymore. I ended up walling myself away from them because of it, because I'm tired of all this fighting and this stupid drama. We're all young adults at this point, between seventeen and eighteen, so why are we fighting like six year olds?
I just don't get it.
I'd like to tell them but I know that'll only end up causing more drama and chaos, and what's worse is that I can feel myself breaking on the inside. In the past couple of months I've been snapping back, I get upset over tiny things that don't really matter, and I hurt. I hurt myself and my family. I'm just so tired of it. I'm tired and I know that if this doesn't stop then I will. I don't want to be friends with the people that hurt me (and yet here I am) I'm here everyday because I don't want the people I love to hurt. Even though what happened last year is happening again.
I'm not going to let this effect my studies, or I'm trying not to, but can't they just give me a break for once!? Can't they stop fighting?
What silly, hurtful, childish friends I have.
And they know it's true right now. They know.
But I just need some help to show them, I need some advice.
One person dies, someone who brought us closer at this death and then four months later we're all at each other's throats. I know it's not John's death that has caused this, that it's something else, but I want to know. I'm not strong enough, okay? I wish John hadn't been taken away because I need him right now. I need him to smile, tilt his head back like he did, and laugh. I need him to laugh at them, I need to hear that there is some joy left in the world, that this anger and drama is all just a phase and that it'll pass.
So please, if anyone has some advice, I could really use some right now.

:peace:
tori

4 Comments | Previous Journal Entries
  • Mood: Defeated
  • Listening to: Crazy Days: Adam Gregory
  • Reading: The Stranger

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: United States
  • Interests: Horseback riding, photography, singing show tunes, playing freeze, and hanging out with my friends.
  • Favourite genre of music: Anything that doesn't sound like crap.
  • Favourite poet or writer: Stephen King, Robert Frost, V.C Andrews
  • Tools of the Trade: Nikon D40

deviantART Notice

[x]

Comments


~venomxbaby:iconvenomxbaby: Jun 21, 2009, 7:40:53 PM
thx for favving kerosene hun =D
~Talisturo:iconTalisturo: May 25, 2009, 11:02:13 AM
Thanks for the :+fav: you have a STUNNING gallery!!

:wow:

--
Join our online SIM community at the temporary forums

Because you don't want to miss Hollowood Online!
~xalways:iconxalways: Jun 17, 2009, 8:47:23 PM
No problem, and thanks so much! =)

--
_ _ _ _ _ _

I never met a smile I didn't like ---> =D
:heart:
There is nothing insignificant in the world. It all depends on the point of view.
Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe
-called both Reina and Tori
~cydienne:iconcydienne: May 24, 2009, 4:27:09 AM
Thx for :+fav: :)

--
If it weren't for the last minute, nothing would get done
~Miko-the-Dog:iconMiko-the-Dog: May 17, 2009, 1:07:44 PM
Thanks so much for the fave, it means a lot coming from someone with such a beautiful gallery :)

--
"If man was meant to walk, God would have given him four legs; instead he gave him two--one for either side of a horse"

"Hey, they look like evil lawyers!"
~myself
~itsariot:iconitsariot: May 13, 2009, 5:46:45 AM
Thanks for the fav!
~BoxTom:iconBoxTom: Apr 18, 2009, 6:26:34 PM
Thanks for the fav sweetie pie 8DD

--
"Ohhh... I get it. What you're really asking is... 'Will you please beat the shit out of me, Kanji?'"
Previous Page12345...Next Page

Site Map