John**Warning: Language and content.
Well I don't really know how to put this. Someone I love is dead. We're not talking dead as in we're not talking anymore (I'd love to hear his voice again or even his contagious laugh) but I'm talking dead as in he was in a car accident, and was projected out of the windshield. You can see it in the photos that the press released. No, he wasn't driving but the driver is alive and out of the hospital and the driver's cousin who was in the backseat is in critical condition.
So one of my closest friends, John Schwartz, is dead.
I've never been struck so hard, not to mention this is my third death this year. I'm tired of death, pain, and tears. I'm crushed watching my friends cry and plugging up my own tears.
I want to be strong, I know John would want all of us to happy and not mourn.
Hell! He'd want us to light a joint in his honor! (I'm straightedge though)
I never thought I'd lose someone like this, and it made me see a lot of things differently.
John was my brother, my best friend, my pick-me-up, and my love.
I loved that kid.
He drove me crazy sometimes, irritated me, pissed me off, and hurt me on few occasions (he rough-housed alot) and yet I loved him. I wasn't in love with him but if I could have traded places with him in that car then you can sure believe that I would have.
In a heartbeat.
I don't want to hear anyone saying how sorry they are because why should they be sorry? He was an amazing person, my own mother is even sad. I think he was the first guy at my school that I actually said, "My friend John-" the first guy to become my first real friend there. I remember when the teacher yelled at us in english for "flirting".
"We're not flirting!"
Last year we admitted it. We had been flirting.
He was a stone in our group of friends, quick with a joke and always making us smile. Tricking us but having it end in laughter. His arms always there to give us a hug. His awesome arms. That kid, as small as he was, was jacked! I don't think anyone would've messed with him. Today at lunch a few of us were repeating some of John's favorite Dead Baby jokes.
Whats the difference between a dead baby and an orange?
I don't jizz on my orange after I peel off the skin!
That's just the kind of guy he was.
I wish we had been on better terms, the past six months we had been growing apart a bit but I think we would've resolved it soon enough. I saw myself hanging out with him later in life, just chilling and telling bad jokes. Maybe even swapping massages.
He had magic fingers, knocked every knot out of my back!
So my friends and I are doing okay I think. We're hurting a lot and I know this is a pain that isn't going away anytime soon but we'll be okay. Because thats what John wants.
He'd want us blasting The Red Hot Chili Peppers and Bob Marley out of our car speakers and dancing around like raving loons! He'd want us laughing and having a good time, and teasing each other to no end. He'd want us to be there for each other. And so I say let it be!
I have more tears to cry, more memories to recap, and more clinging to people physically to do. But I'm going to be okay. And if I can make it then so can everyone else.
If we just stick together. :Heart:
I love you guys! So please stay strong!
R.I.P John
You're one damn amazing guy.
"Live the life you love. Love the life you live."
-bob marley
Miserable
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RIP John.
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Oh wow his dead baby jokes. I remember he spent an entire lunch one time in 10th grade telling them... i went to my next class crying my eyes out cause I had been laughing so much.
I've been blaring RHCP nonstop all day. I never knew how good they were before, I didnt really listen to them. But John didn't have a bad taste in music =]
I know now that we'll all be there for each other more than ever. I know I'll always be here for you if you ever need to talk <3 (i have problems starting conversations haha)
But yeah, rest in peace John. We all loved you so much <333
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"Some asshole told me that if you believe in something, you have to be willing to sacrifice everything."
But I agree, if we stick together and just be each others crutch, we'll get through it. We can all do this if we just keep each other standing and holding on strong. So if you ever need me, just say the word <3
So he better rest in peace because we love him so much! <3
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Rawr! xx
i cant believe ur gone
im not gonna make it thru.
i miss you baby, =[
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