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Victoria Farally (Reina/ Tori)

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Hurting: Advice?

Mon Mar 2, 2009, 8:32 AM

^{I can't even say I saw this coming, because I didn't.
I've been missing John even more lately, and I know it should slowly hurt a little less each day but it just hasn't. I guess it's because all of my friends are being rather hostile towards each other. And it's true! They're all getting mad at each other for silly things and fighting, I'm growing so tired of it. I don't even know what to do anymore. I ended up walling myself away from them because of it, because I'm tired of all this fighting and this stupid drama. We're all young adults at this point, between seventeen and eighteen, so why are we fighting like six year olds?
I just don't get it.
I'd like to tell them but I know that'll only end up causing more drama and chaos, and what's worse is that I can feel myself breaking on the inside. In the past couple of months I've been snapping back, I get upset over tiny things that don't really matter, and I hurt. I hurt myself and my family. I'm just so tired of it. I'm tired and I know that if this doesn't stop then I will. I don't want to be friends with the people that hurt me (and yet here I am) I'm here everyday because I don't want the people I love to hurt. Even though what happened last year is happening again.
I'm not going to let this effect my studies, or I'm trying not to, but can't they just give me a break for once!? Can't they stop fighting?
What silly, hurtful, childish friends I have.
And they know it's true right now. They know.
But I just need some help to show them, I need some advice.
One person dies, someone who brought us closer at this death and then four months later we're all at each other's throats. I know it's not John's death that has caused this, that it's something else, but I want to know. I'm not strong enough, okay? I wish John hadn't been taken away because I need him right now. I need him to smile, tilt his head back like he did, and laugh. I need him to laugh at them, I need to hear that there is some joy left in the world, that this anger and drama is all just a phase and that it'll pass.
So please, if anyone has some advice, I could really use some right now.

tori}

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~xheavilybrokenx Mar 2, 2009, 8:47:15 AM

i know exactly what your talking about. and its fuckin rediculous. im tired of all this bullshit drama thats happening between us. especially over the little things. i think we all just need a break from eachother. i.e. college. when we come back on break we'll need eachother more than ever and we'll finally be able to appreciate the friendship between us all

*BoxTom Mar 2, 2009, 11:14:42 AM

I don't really have any advice, because I do the same exact thing you do. I was sick of all the drama, so I just completely withdrew myself from people. Sure it made me feel better but, it didn't really help anyone else /: I guess you just gotta face the problem head on, let everyone know that they're acting so childish, and try and work from there. People don't like to be informed that they're being douches at first, but give it some time and they'll realize that it's true and snap back to normal.

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"Some asshole told me that if you believe in something, you have to be willing to sacrifice everything."

~XChibifiedFreakx Mar 2, 2009, 12:12:12 PM

I pretty much agree with Box, they need to be told rather bluntly that their childish fighting really does not help in any sort of situation. They need to be told 'Look, why fight like six year olds when we should be enjoying the time we have with one another while we're still together?'

It sounds like they need someone to take the charge and be the person to bring it to their attention. Not that I am saying it should be you, it seems it is already being a bit too much which is fully understandable.

But hopefully, gradually, things they will come to their senses.

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~venomxbaby May 6, 2009, 10:01:30 PM

don't worry, it is probably just a phase. but only if your friends weren't always like this. put some distance between yourself and them and let someone else feed their drama for a bit. they'll cool off, if they get tired of it too. some people never do though, and you have to drop those people.

my blurb: leaving high school and moving to another state was the best thing i ever did. i don't have a really close best friend now, except for my awesome husband. but i am so much better off! lol. my childhood best friend was bipolar and probably had a lot to do w/ my depression [i had issues, but her drama didn't help]. i used to be a helpless, apathetic, hateful goth who lived under a dark cloud. but now i am told i put smiles on everyones faces. things do change hun. don't forget the simple things in life that make us happy. like horses, photoshop, rpgs, and cats if anything

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